CHASING MY MEANDERING MIND… AGAIN
January 21, 2020
2020… a year that has been pictured somewhere in the far future for decades as a kind of mecca of achievement… has now arrived.
So, where are we??????
It surely does feel like a pivotal moment to me personally, for in March I turn 80 years old! I had never imagined what a seismic shift in consciousness one year can make. Suddenly I know I am old enough to die… and I can feel grateful to still be alive and relatively sane.
Yet when I look at the world around me, I find myself feeling alien to much of it.
The digital-electronic-cyber-space world is one I am only an observer of, not a willing participant. It deranges me! I feel lost amid all the technology… passwords, codes, apps, and acronyms.
In my 60’s and even early 70’s these things were still manageable for me and I enjoyed an active and vital “online” life… creating my own blog and website; selling my artwork on eBay and Etsy; self-publishing a novel… And I attempt to continue these activities now but within what seems a much more complex and convoluted world.
But all of that is mostly a factor of my age.
Yet what we are witnessing in our nations’ political, judicial, commercial, educational, and religious institutions at the turning of the decades is far, far more alarming and frightening than simply my personal fear of getting old. It is essentially a fear of survival… of the country, of our environment, of the wilderness and wildlife, of the human species, and of the earth itself!
How do we now live in the tumult of these early years of the NEW AGE? That which was so long promised with high hopes and seldom imagined with the angst and trauma within which it has arrived.
THE AGE OF AQUARIUS! Oh!… the songs and the plays and the wonderful fantasies… hallucinatory visions… pipe dreams… of a peaceful world built on LOVE and TRUST and TRUTH. (That was back in the 1960’s, 70’s and 80’s…)
It seems laughable now… bitterly laughable. In the midst of a world built on GREED and HATE and WAR everywhere. One that has been growing under the façade of Prosperity and Peace… and LIES!
Are we the Fools of the Universe?
I really can’t say anymore right now. I’m going to have a glass of wine and try to forget about it all for the night. Tomorrow is another day… perhaps things will look better tomorrow. Or maybe I can just run away and ignore it all.